I am such a disappointment 
I am sure when my mom and dad wanted to have a child they never thought they would get someone like me
A child who gets anxiety attacks 
A child who’s crying wakes them up in the middle of the night
I am sure their vision of parenthood included going to baseball games and dance recitals
Instead they ended up with me 
Having to come home to a child who is in an endless pool of tears 
Why did they have to get me?
I am such a failure of a child