For the past two years I’ve been my schools basketball scorekeeper. 
If started off as a ‘favor’ and a ‘distraction’ but as I got closer to the players and the staff, it became something more personal. 
This season I want as close to the players as last season, but I love all of them. I love the team and the sport of basketball. I care so much for the team. 
I counted on each game to make me happy. It made me feel like I was good at something; i felt important and relied on. And I hate being home so it kept me in a ‘good place’ aside from the gym. 
Tonight was the last game ever. Bitter sweet. I care more than I should. But this is important to me. just me. trying to find closure through this rant. 
I’m so thankful to have been part of something so great