Fuck fuck fuck

I hate you , i hate me , i hate feeling this way i hate having feelings for you , but most of all i hate the way you make me feel right now . I get you are mad at me but i told you i was sorry i told you i couldn’t talk cause i was going through i rough time , i showed you a couple days ago that i gelt like shit that those things happend , i showed you i had still feelings for you , like you did well atleat like you said you did . You told me things were okay you told me to feel fine i asked you out you told me you didn’t feel well and you weren’t completely yourself i get it , you are going through a rough time i understood but fuck i asked from monday if you were okay you never texted me back not a single fucking time , you dont even know how that makes me feel i feel miserable and i just want to give up. Than my friend sends me a fucking picture of you eating fucking meals with her and sharing laughs , you couldve just fucking told me you didnt want to go out i would be fine , but the way you made me feel right now fuck you can never ever make that up . This is the worst fucking feeling i ever had , and if this was your way of hurting me wel fucking wooptedoo you fucking broke me . I havent slept in over 3 days cause i feel like im a worthless piece of shit and i will never be good enough … Well fuck this fucking feeling i neer ever want to be in love like this again for fuck sakei probably will love you even though but i feel like shit and congratulations your the cause of it . I hope it made you happy i hope you can laugh again and i sure hope that you feel like you again. But i will never ever let you in again you know im bad with expressing my feelings so if say i love you an i will care for you i actually mean it but you dont it’s okay though in a total mess and you know what i’m okay with this shit im fine with feeling miserable and fucking terrible because it proves to me that im not worthy , and you know what you are right i aint and the feeling of miserablenes is the only thing that keeps me going through my days , but for fuck sake please dont ever call me or even fucking text me again cause i cant handle it anymore . There is a limit and you reached it you broke me i hope you are satisfyt..