Update; life is intense under all circumstances

~ Terrible things have happened this year and I’m cool with it. It’s somewhat disorientating realising I don’t have to feel terrible about it. Or I will feel terrible about it, but I will also feel so much love emanating from within; the pulsating heartbeat of the cosmos dances with my pain.. so I don’t ever lose sight of myself anymore. I’m here, open heart and open mind, saying ‘what next’? Everything is okay.

~ I’ve been questioning myself more than usual. I’ve matured a great deal. I am very unsteady on my feet, but I’m not afraid of my vulnerability. 

~ My new favourite activity is going for long runs in the dark void of night and autumn rain; it is so immensely liberating. 

~ In the past, I used pain and suffering as a muse for my writing, and in doing so I developed an unhealthy sense of attachment towards it. It certainly made it very difficult to let go. My most recent experiences have shown me otherwise. Everyday has been a let-go.