i’m not sure if i wish my mom would know about how i feel or not. right now she thinks i feel bad about school.. but that a bigger lie then “i’m fine”. she havn’t notised my lack of consentration yet tho.
My mom makes me study because she thinks i will feel bad about myself if i get bad grades, just because she did. And still she keeps telling me “were not the same person, so i can’t tell you what you feel” the thing is, that’s true.. that’s why i cant talk to people. because i’m not the same as everyone else.
If i told people how i feel and what i can see people would call me mad and lock me up in a clinic. but i guess that would feel more welcoming than this. i would finally be where people wanted me to be.