But I also really like physical affection (not just sexual, but that is part of it).
And I know that making sure you are independent individuals while also in a relationship means less affection in ways.
That’s fine….but sometimes it’s just really hard for me to get used to and I hate that.
I don’t want to feel like I’m in a relationship that depends a lot on being physical…but I also like it a lot….probably because of my body issues and dysphoria, so it reassures me that I’m some kind of attractive.
But I kind of hate that I feel that way.
Yet I can’t seem to not be butthurt when I don’t get the attention I want.