OHIP Double Standard BS...

 I’m sitting here crying yet again from back pain. The weight of the dead muscle in the lower part of my stomach that hangs really low is the cause. Ppl probably think I have that low hanging mass from being obese but in actuality I have it from child birth. My daughter sat low through out my whole pregnancy. I had to have a c-section. She was 10 lbs 7 oz. It’s been nothing but dead weight ever since. I can’t even feel anything on the skin. It’s been numb ever since. Then I had my first son and I saw a specialist for my back. She said it was injured from carrying both of my big babies during pregnancy and that bending in and out the playpen was making it worse. She told me I needed to lose weight. No duh. Here’s the thing. When I do lose weight the rest of my stomach goes down but I still have this mass. It puts so much pressure on my lower back and hips. Makes it really difficult to walk. I then injured my back even more working at Goodwill. Didn’t get any WSIB for it because Goodwill lied and said it didn’t happen on the job. I went back to work with explicit instructions from my doctor saying I couldn’t repeatedly bend over or carry anything more than 10 lbs. I guess they thought it was a joke because that’s exactly what they had me doing. The new store manager was verbally abusive and screamed at me because I was in pain. I got sick of his bs and rode out the rest of my contract on a medical. All I need is to get rid of this mass. I hear lose weight but you can’t lose weight properly if you can’t move. They won’t remove it until I lose weight. it’s a vicious cycle. OHIP (Ontario Health Insurance Plan) only covers Roux-en-Y Gastric Bypass Surgery. Apparently even that’s hard to get approved for. That’s no other help from them. The thing that pisses me off is that if someone is unhappy with their sexuality and want to have the surgery to change it’s fully covered. No hassle like being over weight. Believe me I have nothing against gay ppl but you would think more of a priority would be to help obese ppl for the simple fact that obesity causes other medical problems. I keep thinking about getting an obesity support belt but eh only way to get it covered is to get a prescription fro a specialist but I can’t see a specialist because I don’t need to have surgery. There are so many times I’ve tried to take a knife to my stomach but hubby has stopped me. There are plenty of times I tried to kill myself because of it. It’s the pain. I feel like I just can’t go on anymore….