On Holding On

Emotions are such fragile, manipulative things. They can be easily bent, easily changed. Changed into soft, caressing arms, or into sharp weapons. When we allow someone access to this part of ourselves, we have to become vulnerable. And this scares so many of us. We are terrified of letting someone in because we are scared of getting hurt. Well here’s the hard truth. No matter what, we are all going to get hurt. You have to. It’s a part of life. However, it is worth it. It might not seem like it while you’re getting hurt, but it is. Later, when someone takes those emotions and turns them into the soft, gentle arms and embraces you, it will be worth it. The hurt is so hard to overcome, believe me I know. It breaks down your heart into all these shards, and like broken ribs they start to pierce all the other vital parts of you, and you wonder if you will ever stop bleeding. The physical wounds clot, but the emotional bleed and bleed and bleed. But they WILL stop. All you have to do is hold on. Take it from me, because I truly know. I was lost in the depths of the brokenness and the hurt, certain that I would never be able to survive through it. And then I met the man I’m in love with. He was lost in that same misery and we pulled each other out. He took away the brokenness and he held me until all the pieces went back together again. So I urge all of you beautiful people lost in darkness, look up. Look into the constellations. Those points of light, they will reach you one day. So hold on. Hold on.